Skyler's Journal 4/27

4/27

I need to write everything I know about myself. I can’t swim so deep, but maybe if I see the surface and go deeper, I can learn my ways without getting to the bottom.

My name is Skyler Foster.

I am fourteen years old and in Eighth Grade.

I was baptized at First Christian Church of Mill Halley last year.

I live in Mill Halley.

I have three best friends- Roslyn, Linnette, and Ginger.

Roslyn has a crush on Jonothon Ibbit.

He is popular and has dated probably 20 girls in our year.

That doesn’t matter to my story.

My feelings sometimes sink deeper than I want to swim

I can’t tell how deep and what’s down there,

Only that it is important to me navigating the waters of life.

Whenever I have a feeling I don’t want to see again, I let it sink

Now I want to find those feelings.

Not so I feel that way

But so I know what is down there.

There’s a boy called Lusis-

He lives across the street

I had a crush on him in first grade

Ever since he let Linnette win the spelling bee.

I thought he had a crush on Linnette.

But he treats her like a little sister that he has to protect.

Linnette has her own problem.

I had a crush on him in second, third, fourth, and fifth grades.

In sixth grade I realized there is more to love than I previously thought,

And that crush could not be real.

I then began ignoring it, allowing myself to get caught up in the ways of life.

In seventh grade it jumped over my mind, but I laughed.

In eighth grade, I began to watch.

Could it be real?

And here I am now.

Could it be real?

Could I love him, Could he love me?

So many ‘what if’s

So many ‘coulds’

So many ‘woulds’

Everything I see on Pinterest says I love him

And I do care for him, just as I do my other friends,

Maybe that is all. No romance. Just Care.